All I know is... I woke up at that moment in time, with all my memories of what happened in my first life intact. And the things I remembered started happening again. I've never met anyone else that it's happened to.
Yasusada's expression is an odd combination of thoughtful and uncomfortable, which may or may not make sense to her depending on how much she knows about their duties and their missions.]
If that's the right version of history, then I'm glad.
[yams should kill her because clearly she's altered history]
...oh...
[suddenly, she wonders if that's the reason for his wanting to learn medicine - and for his hesitation, when she'd asked him what he wanted to learn first.]
Anyway, she sure is correct!!!! There's a pallor to his face when the memory ends--and he looks down at his lap, hands curling into his hakama. He doesn't say anything for a while, but eventually, softly--]
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week three, monday
jiuqing is getting exceedingly tired of this, but it is what it is.]
My apologies, Sir Yasusada. Let's hope it will make this quick.
[there's a burst of metallic color, and then -
it's unpleasant, to say the least. death always is. ...even when it doesn't stick.]
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Anyway, he just gives her a small smile, because they're all used to this by now--though his brow furrows at the end of it, head tilted slightly.]
That was... a dream?
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[...]
But history began to repeat itself the way I remembered it happening. So... I think it was real. In my first life, I died.
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So then--you were reincarnated? Or are you a spirit?
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[she shrugs]
All I know is... I woke up at that moment in time, with all my memories of what happened in my first life intact. And the things I remembered started happening again. I've never met anyone else that it's happened to.
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I wonder... if something happened, to fix your history.
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[damn, which god did she impress when she died cursing her cousin's and aunt's names.]
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So you're just--reliving your life, now?
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I'm making the most of my second chance. [...] This time... I've managed to save my mother from my aunt's attempts to poison her.
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Yasusada's expression is an odd combination of thoughtful and uncomfortable, which may or may not make sense to her depending on how much she knows about their duties and their missions.]
If that's the right version of history, then I'm glad.
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That's good, then.
[Unfortunately, the memory she's getting in return isn't nearly as hopeful.]
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...oh...
[suddenly, she wonders if that's the reason for his wanting to learn medicine - and for his hesitation, when she'd asked him what he wanted to learn first.]
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Anyway, she sure is correct!!!! There's a pallor to his face when the memory ends--and he looks down at his lap, hands curling into his hakama. He doesn't say anything for a while, but eventually, softly--]
I'm sorry.
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...you don't have anything to apologize for, Sir Yasusada.
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It's just--I didn't mean to show you that.
[It's not that he minds sharing his painful moments, really. But normally it's a decision he made himself.]
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[pixi did.]
But if you're going to apologize to me for what I saw, I should be apologizing to you for what you saw, isn't that right?
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He looks like he's thinking, though.]
Well... you can if you want to? But I'm a sword, so...
[So violent murders aren't anything he isn't already used to.]
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I may not be a fighter, but I've seen my share of battle and injured people.
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The army?
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A friend of mine from a military family left to join the army, and I went too, to serve as a doctor.
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...That's kind of how it feels with this body, too.
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[she looks surprised by that]
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