It's not that. [Well--it is, kind of.] Being left behind, it's not... new. For me. It's just...
[How does he explain?]
I know that whoever did this probably wasn't thinking clearly. And I think... when we get home, Aruji can probably find his spirit again, and bring him back home. We knew that this place was dangerous. But it's still... it still hurts, in here. And I'm not--I don't know if I can forgive whoever did this.
I don't think anyone expects you to forgive them. Or... at least, I would hope they wouldn't.
[like. yes, there's a distinct possibility that they've been - affected, somehow, like kazuma clearly was and how he'd insisted that ryunosuke had been. but a death is still a death, a loss is still a loss. it hurts, even if there is the possibility that once they're out of here, their aruji can find his spirit and summon him back.
jiuqing never forgave the people who hurt (redacted). she can't bring herself to think that yasusada, then, owes anyone forgiveness of any kind.]
No matter the circumstances, the loss is fresh, and knowing the reasons won't necessarily make it hurt any less.
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[How does he explain?]
I know that whoever did this probably wasn't thinking clearly. And I think... when we get home, Aruji can probably find his spirit again, and bring him back home. We knew that this place was dangerous. But it's still... it still hurts, in here. And I'm not--I don't know if I can forgive whoever did this.
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[like. yes, there's a distinct possibility that they've been - affected, somehow, like kazuma clearly was and how he'd insisted that ryunosuke had been. but a death is still a death, a loss is still a loss. it hurts, even if there is the possibility that once they're out of here, their aruji can find his spirit and summon him back.
jiuqing never forgave the people who hurt (redacted). she can't bring herself to think that yasusada, then, owes anyone forgiveness of any kind.]
No matter the circumstances, the loss is fresh, and knowing the reasons won't necessarily make it hurt any less.