aitou | catchall; buzen

[well

that happened!!

buzen is just going to be wandering around the greenhouse honestly? it reminds him of kuwana, and that's enough. he'll glance in the direction of footsteps and offer up a smile, sincere if slightly somber]

How're you feeling, Yasu-san?

[SWEET KUWANA... Yasusada hasn't had much of a chance to talk to him yet, but he's spoken to Kotegiri, and that's enough to realize why Buzen's in here.]

Better. [He's all healed up; some scars and bruises have been left behind, which is very odd for a sword, but he looks and sounds better.] That wasn't what I expected, though.

[It's not what any of them expected, really--but "execution" means something very specific to a sword, so.]

[he nods at that]

... yeah. None of it was what I expected. I even tried to talk to Steel-san and Zuma-san themselves last night about it...

I'm pretty disappointed, that we couldn't do anything at all but watch.

[and get waxy]

[He nods, and doesn't seem surprised.]

I thought you would. [All things considered--Buzen had seemed like the best choice.] I really don't know what that was, though. That wasn't an execution at all.

[That word conjures up a very specific image--whatever they just watched was more like a spectacle.]

It wasn't.

[even tho i, dana, only caught the beginning parts bc i wanted to dodge spoilies]

It was just... meant to break. Cruelty for cruelty's sake. Like everything else about this place.

[The spoilies!

Yasusada tilts his head slightly, turning to look at him.]

You think so, then?

[They'd discussed this before, the three of them--but they didn't really have an answer then. Of course, that had been before all of this.]

[ . . . he frowns.]

I want to talk to Shale-san again. Because Shale-san told me last time that the Prism wasn't capable of feeling something like malice or aggression towards us, even though sometimes it could do something considered cruel.

I'm not sure how true that is anymore, or how much I believe it.

It just feels like on Thursday everything that could've went wrong... did.

...Yeah.

[He's quiet for a little while, then, turning back to the plants.]

I was thinking about what Kiyomitsu mentioned--that there might be something else involved too. It doesn't really make sense, if all of this happened because of the prism.

[Why would the prism want them to try and catch Kazuma, if the prism was the reason Kazuma killed Ryunosuke in the first place? And yet, trying to fit it to logic doesn't necessarily feel right, either.]

But then... maybe that's thinking of it too much like a human. [It's so hard to tell. They know so little.]

Last time I talked to Shale-san, they said they were worried we'd hurt ourselves by rejecting it and trying to find a way home.

[buzen nods]

I was told that too. Sort of the idea that we have to get settled first, before we proceed with anything - but I think the longer we wait, the more our numbers will dwindle. It's the equivalent of trying to hold down a fortress that's being starved out, I guess.

[it always comes back to war!!! war is what he understands and he's pretty sure that the prism declared war!!!]

But we lack information on the enemy, and we don't know how to infiltrate it either.

Mm... I'm worried about what might happen to our memories, too. I don't want to start forgetting, if we're here for too long.

[They could wait for the saniwa forever, really--but he doesn't really want to. And he certainly doesn't want to risk forgetting, the way the residents have. He'd rather fail and die than abandon the mission and his memories altogether.]

[ . . . aw. buzen will just tilt his head at that]

... want to try writing stuff down?

I think that's why Ame writes poetry sometimes... because he's moved, or because he wants to honor the memory of something. I don't know if I could use the same words he does but... maybe that'd work until you get your memories back?

[Oh--he hadn't thought of that. He tilts his head, considering it.]

That's a good idea. Even if our memories are okay, it might be important.

[Considering what happened to Kazuma and Ryunosuke--it might come in handy in other ways.]

[nodding!]

I don't know what I'd really write down... It's hard to say what makes a memory important, or if when you look back on something, it's small things that really stick out to you.

[and how sometimes memory is attached to things like existing, especially for buzen]

But we can try.

[That makes him smile a little.]

I think I'd want to write down everything.

[he laughs at that]

Me too. I'd start with 'I met Yasu-san and Kiyo-san of the Shinsengumi, even though we didn't know that we were comrades to start. But we get along well, and I am glad we know each other now.'

[so simple.... so stupid.....]

That'd be a sad thing for me to forget - I'm glad we're all here together.

catchall; buzen

week 1, post-exec

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